Crushed

This weekend has made me open my eyes. I can't trust anyone anymore it seems like every time i put my heart out for someone i always get it crushed or ripped out. I fell head over heals for a boy who was just simply amazing, i thought he was perfect in almost ever way and because love blinded me from the reality and i got shot down and feel like a worthless piece of NOTHING. Things just came out of nowhere and now I'm alone..again..heart broken from another boy who i thought was the most amazing person I've ever met. I don't know why this time its different, but it truly is. It just seems like i put everything i had into making this work and now..i have nothing left in me. Its the worst feeling I've ever felt and I'm not sure where to go from here. More than anything i just want to go down to Milwaukee and talk to him face to face, but i know it wont help anything, that I'll just be town down even further and that I'll just be town to pieces and have to drive all the way back, 2hrs, by myself and i know I'll be crying the entire way..wondering why a person can tell you they love you, and they care about you more than anyone in the entire world, and then do this to you.

IF YOU DON'T MEAN IT, DON'T SAY IT!!!